Letter to the Editors

by Gloria Meza

This memory keeps replaying in my head, and when it does, I feel this sense of pain, fear and as if I’m all alone. After my brother finished brutally beating me, I ran into my restroom, locked the door and began to cry. As I cried, I watched the drops of blood run from my nose and fall onto my knees that were so far pushed into my chest, I could feel the vibration of my heart pounding on them. I was scared out of my mind, all I wanted was to be safe and warm. With my mother and sister Brenda allowing the abuse to go on, and with my other two sisters (Stella and Thalia) being in federal prison, I felt trapped and alone. This unbearable pain I felt all my childhood is indescribable. When I reported the abuse the first time and was questioned by the police, I felt I wasn’t being heard, taken seriously and as if they didn’t believe me. When child services intervened, I hoped and prayed to be taken away from these people I feel damned to call my family. The only thing done was kick him out and threaten my mother to take me from her custody if she were to let him live with us again. For some that may sound fair, but it really wasn’t. How could I live with people that put me in danger? I should have been put in another home away from my mother and Brenda, I’m safer with strangers than with these people; I know my mother, she’ll put him over me no matter the situation, I know for a fact my mother was going to let him in again. Sadly, the social worker didn’t see it that way. As I was forced to stay with my mother, where I was being resented, I constantly feared the thought of my mother letting him in. Every sound, even the slightest touch on my shoulder would startled me. Nightmares and flashbacks began to happen. My brother was once a construction worker and an electrician, and when there was road work being done among the streets, the workers who wore yellow vests made me feel immediately ill as if I was in danger again because my mind was convinced it was my brother. I began seeking therapy and was diagnosed with PTSD. I was on a long road to recovery. As I began taking medication, my everyday nightmares lessened to 5 days a week, a big deal to me. Even though I was still having flashbacks, having a good night’s sleep 2 days out of the week was progress which wasn’t easy. I was proud of the progress I was making, and thanks to my incredible therapist, psychologist and UCLA medical students that have helped me progress. All that time, effort and progress I was making was soon thrown away because my mother had let him back in again. I reported it for the second time and stayed with my cousin in the meantime, I was certain they would finally take me away, having that in the back of my mind as I reported it was comforting. I told myself “I don’t ever have to see my mother again” which also brought a sense of relief. Well it was a big “sike, ha you thought,” all they did was – again kick him out and threaten my mother (FOR THE SECOND TIME) if she were to let him in they’ll take me away. I refused to go back, they didn’t do what they were supposed to do. They should have taken me away from my mother for child endangerment, but they didn’t. I put my foot down, enough was enough, I demanded my social worker to get me out of there to which he replied, “let me talk to my supervisor.” I didn’t hear back from my social worker after that, even though I was constantly leaving him voicemails. Meanwhile I remained with my cousin, only to find that when my mother was forced to kick my brother out, he stayed with a friend that was one house down the street I was staying. I couldn’t get away from my abuser, everywhere I turned he was there. I had to decide between, living in a house away from him or staying with my mom knowing she’ll let him back in again. I was trapped. I was forced to move back with my mother where at least it would buy me some time before I got beat again. I began getting flashbacks or, as I call them “episodes,” along with nightmares. This time the pain felt different, it was changing me into a cruel person towards men. I lost my faith, for many reasons but mainly because I didn’t want to praise a man, as well as I feared men, I felt like every man that entered my life was going to leave me or beat me. I remember an incident: I had seen a homeless man laying down on the street asking for money, when he asked me for money I replied “ no” something I don’t normally do because I knew the struggle of being homeless, I knew how it felt to ask for money, but I said no because in my head I immediately thought “you probably don’t deserve it because you just came out of jail for beating a woman.” I knew that was wrong, and I know it’s a horrible way to live life, assuming every man beats women, but the thing is, having that mentality makes me feel safe. It’s hard to explain but think of it like this: parents always tell their children to not talk to strangers that the “stranger danger method” prevents you from running into “bad” strangers. Now, don’t get the sense that I completely despise what I went through because I don’t, it’s bad, but it has also allowed me to have a strong desire to help woman that’ve been abused like me. For example, it led me into the arms of law, more specifically I want to be a lawyer and eventually change laws that make woman feel defeated under the justice system. For instance, when woman have been physically abused, sexually abused and even raped and report it they must face their abuser in court. I also want to fix the department of child services as well as the foster system, which I mainly must thank my social worker for that, for never returning my calls and leaving me out to dry. Surely all these changes I want to make lead me to participate in Teen Court, take two ELAC classes (psychology and communication studies) as well as volunteer in women and children homeless shelters. I’ve met some incredibly strong woman at the shelters I volunteer in whom I exchange my story with along as them sharing theirs, they repeatedly mention to me to not allow my abuser to get the best of me and to live my best life, and the fact that my voice wasn’t heard should make me work harder to make sure the next woman is. I’ll be graduating soon and turning 18 in November which is the light at the end of the tunnel for me because legally I won’t be forced to live with my mother. I want to deeply thank Jessica Ramirez for being able to express my story in the best possible way along with the editors, Ms. Garcia, who allowed me to share my story and also for being a teacher who truly cares about her students, my counselor Mrs. Lopez for guiding me, my sister Stella and Thalia for risking their futures so I can have a roof over my head and everyone who took the time to read my story. I’ve been feeling resentment from my mother and Brenda for so long and to finally hear people tell me they support me and stand with me truly means the world to me. 


by Nikki Nuno

A rape case in Cork, Southwest Ireland took an unexpected turn when the defendant was found not guilty of raping the victim who happened to be wearing a thong. The defendant’s lawyer argued against the victim in consideration of her thong. The accused man’s lawyer, senior counsel Elizabeth O’Connell, stated “You have to look at the way she was dressed. She was wearing a thong with a lace front.” The defendant was acquitted by a jury of 8 men and 4 women, most of which felt the 17-year-old had consented to having sex in an alley with a 27-year-old man whom was a stranger to her. This controversial court decision has sparked an enormous outrage in Ireland’s republic. In Dublin, women have hung underwear on clotheslines along sidewalks. In Cork, protestors laid lingerie on the steps of the courthouse. Many people have sided with the young girl’s claim of rape, but why did the judicial branch have a different say? Why does a female’s choice of clothing decide whether her claim of rape is truthful or not? The Rape Crisis Network estimated that only 10% of rapes are ever reported, while only 1 in 40 cases receive an appropriate punishment. Cases like this are much more common than the public believes; an annual awareness day passes time and time again while the reason behind it usually goes unknown, causing cases like this to become a cycle in our judicial system. This day is known as Denim Day, Wednesday, April 24th, 2019, observed for sexual harassment awareness. In 1998, an Italian Supreme Court decision enraged women from the Italian Parliament, to the California Senate and Assembly, leading to the national event. An 18-year-old female was picked up for her first lesson with her 45-year-old driving instructor, taking her to a secluded area for instruction. He pulled her out of the car, wrestled one leg out of her jeans, and forcefully raped her, threatening her life if she told anyone. Once she returned home, she told her parents who supported her decision to take matters to court. He was promptly arrested and prosecuted, charged guilty of rape. However, he later appealed the case, centering the argument on “the victim wore very, very tight jeans, she had to help him remove them, and by removing the jeans it was no longer rape but consensual sex”. The case went on to the Supreme Court, and within days, the perpetrator was released and the case was overturned. This case will forever be a reminder that it takes more than just speaking up to get the results wanted, especially when the judicial system is not in your favor, you need the courage to endure the possible counter attacks that await your accusations.
Through popular music, social media influencers and an under-educated adolescence that know no better than to follow sex stereotypes they see daily, the 21st century has been marked with rape culture. We need to stop waiting for things to change, silence needs to speak and violence needs to surrender. Each time you say or post a sexually controversial topic you open the door for thousands to think harassing behavior “isn’t a big deal”. This month you have the option to make a social statement and open a topic people don’t like to talk about with just a pair of jeans. Why not take up the opportunity?
Nearly 1 in 2 women and 1 in 5 men in America experience some form of unwanted sexual contact, don’t accept these statistics! Wear a pair of jeans on April 24th and open up the conversation of rape for people who want to ignore it and those who wish they were heard.

Womanhood into a Work of Art: Elizabeth Catlett

By Alejandra Gonzalez

In her 70-year long career, Elizabeth Catlett created sculptures that celebrate the strength and endurance of African-American and Mexican women. Granddaughter of former slaves, Catlett lived in Washington D.C. for more than three decades until moving to Mexico City with her husband on a grant from the Rosenwald Foundation. Catlett used her art to explore themes relating to race and feminism through sculptures, paintings, and prints, in which most women during the mid-1900’s could share similar experiences. Catlett was refused admission to Carnegie Institute of Technology because of her race, later enrolling at Howard University. She graduated with honors in 1935 and went on to earn the first Master of Fine Arts in sculpture at the University of Iowa five years later.

Being black herself, race has had an influential impact on her, Catlett highlighted the struggle of black people with her art. In hopes of being vocal on segregation and the fight for civil rights, Catlett explains “I have always wanted my art to service my people—to reflect us, to relate to us, to stimulate us, to make us aware of our potential.” Her work began to gain interest during the 1960s and 1970s, almost entirely in the United States because of social movements her works covered like the Black Arts Movement and feminism. Catlett is known largely for her sculptures, especially for works such as Homage to My Young Black Sisters (1968) and various mother-child pairings, later becoming one of her central themes.

In the 1940s, she traveled to Mexico on a fellowship and began to paint murals influenced by the work of famous Mexican artist such as Diego Rivera and Frida Kahlo. Until her death in 2012 in Cuernavaca, Mexico at the age of 96, Catlett received numerous awards and recognition. Catlett’s artwork are held at The Museum of Modern Art in New York, the National Gallery of Art in Washington, D.C., the Hammer Museum in Los Angeles, and the
Art Institute of Chicago, amongst others.

Cover Art: Lady Gaga’s Evolution

By Vicky Hernandez

With the spotlight on Lady Gaga, because of her role in her current award-winning movie, “A Star is Born”, Stefani Joanne Angelina Germanotta’s talents are being highlighted in both acting and singing. Her  career did not start just recently with the movie, but instead at the early age of 4. She began to produce albums in 2008, which lead her to create her global top charted song, “Poker Face”. She continued this huge success by creating more albums to further grow her success. Lady Gaga was always very mysterious and attention catching, not only for her personality but for her symbolic cover art in her albums. “Art pop” was one of the top cover albums that was most attention calling; which presents a nude Gaga sculpture appearing to give birth to the world in the form of a large blue orb, with other framed art works chopped up in the background. As well as in the album cover “Born This Way” she reflects on her what we call “Meat loaf period” which is when nothing is too dramatic, too gaudy and no song was to big for her. Lady Gaga expresses her views on life and life morals through art and portrays her more in depth experiences through her music.

Everything you need to know about the LGBTQ+ Community

By Tanairy Robles

Gay marriage was not legal in California until June 16th, 2008 and It was not legalized in the United States until June 26th, 2015.  On that date, all states took away their ban on gay marriage and allowing many people around the world marry whoever they want. President Barack Obama was the first president to ever state on national TV, “Same-sex marriage should be legal.”

Majority of the people in the LGBTQ+ community grow up with anxiety or depression. According to the National Alliance on Mental Illness, “The risk of a mental health condition, like depression, anxiety disorders, or post-traumatic stress disorder, is almost three times as high for youth and adults who identify as lesbian, gay, bisexual, or transgender.” The reason for that is the troubles of accepting themselves in this society. Though 53% of Americans support gay-marriage, there is still another huge percentage that disapprove and spread hatred towards the LGBTQ+ community. Many believed that expressing who you are and coming out the closet lifts a huge weight off of their shoulder which could help the depression, but the idea of being judged still affects people. Nicole, who is a 43 year old lesbian transgendered woman whom stated, “We go through each day afraid that someone will hurt us because of who we are.” This society’s percentage of acceptance has increased over the years but the divide is still there. How can we bring that divide to an almost 90% rather than 74% which is the current percentage? In simplest terms, we forget our differences and remind ourselves of our similarities that make us human. 

You Earned Your College Admissions

By Nathalia Arevalo

A recent college admissions scandal involving celebrities, business moguls and other wealthy parents hit the front pages. Undeserving children of the wealthy are being admitted into ivy leagues and other top schools. A parent on one account depicted their teenage daughter as a soccer star (who had zero experience in the sport) recruit for Yale, totaling to $1.2 million in bribes. A future University of Southern California student was falsely labeled disabled in order to take his standardized test with a proctor complicit in their ruse. The face of the scandal, well-known actress Lori Loughlin, paid thousands into an account to guarantee a space for her daughter at USC using the ploy of a rowing spot in the team, in which she had no experience in.

PC: USA Today

This incident brought up a dilemma many first-generation or students of color, face during college decision season, affirmative action policies. Affirmative action policies give priority to racial minorities and members of other excluded groups in admissions. These policies are used to make black, brown, and low-income students feel as if they do not deserve to be there and to only be used to make the campus more culturally diverse. This is due to the mindset many white and wealthy students have that black, brown, & low-income students are not as smart or hardworking as them. Meanwhile, so many upper-class students have their parents buy their way into these prestigious schools.

This just goes to show that what matters is the hard work you put into your future. No matter how many colleges you get denied from: they do not represent you. Your college acceptances are well deserved and their importance cannot be lessened by anyone.

Day of Silence

By: Nikki Nuno

April 12th is a day observed by the LGBTQ+ community as the day we give tribute to those who have risked or sacrificed their lives through the expression of their sexual identity. Many individuals take this day seriously as it is a student-ran event to further push back anti-LGBT agendas and help all people feel free to love who they love. Day of Silence was originally formed by a group of college students at the University of Virginia. What was meant to be a project for non-violent protesting became an annual occurrence across the nation, having tens of thousands standing together to end the “endemic” of name calling, bullying and harassment of LGBT students. Those who partake in its observance take a vow of silence for the entire day and use cards to explain what their sacrifice is intended for.

How to get Involved?

The Gay, Lesbian and Straight Education Network (GLSEN) became the official sponsor of the event in 2001. Search their website with the special link www.glsen.org/day-silence to register online or via text to show your support. Below the registration option is several other ways to take action in your school. You can join the Street Team to help spread the word in your community by receiving updates on new resources for April 12th. If you’re planning your silence, GSLEN gives great tips in starting up activities in your school beforehand. You can send in a sign to GSLEN telling how you plan to support at your school along with a selfie. The website also recommends printing out their speaking cards that explain your participation in the event.

Gay Activist Pioneers you should Know

  1. James Baldwin. Known as an author, activist, and playwright, Baldwin was one of the first individuals to venture into the correlation between race, class and sexuality (intersectionality). He was a highly active participant during the Civil Rights Movement; he attended numerous marches and helped stabilize the motivation of Africans Americans to fight for their human rights in the South. As for his reputation in gay rights activism, in one of his most renowned literary works, Giovanni’s Room,gave clarityto the dynamics of same sex marriages. This was a crucial breakthrough in early gay rights activism, giving answers to numerous stereotypes while making sexual identity a less taboo topic and leaving more room for conversation.
  2. Barbara Smith. As a black feminist, lesbian, activist and elected official, it seems as if the fight for gender/sexual equality was bound to be part of her future. In 1974, she became co-founder of the Combahee River Collective, which is known for its developments in the field of intersectionality. It also helped highlight that the “white” feminist movement helped only specific groups of women and excluded African American women. Through this organization, Smith gained some experience under her belt, and with the motivation of her friends, later founded the Kitchen Table: Women of Color Press. This was a national advancement not only for women, but the most oppressed group amongst us, colored women. The Kitchen Table was the world’s first publishing company to be operated exclusively by colored women. Once she received her chair in Albany, New York’s councilmen, she would serve two terms directed in addressing systemic imbalances in the city.
  3. Rev. Dr. Brent Hawkes. Now retired, Senior Pastor Brent Hawkes has worked at the Metropolitan Community Church of Toronto for 35 years. He realized he was “different” at a young age and decided to keep his sexuality to himself. One day, he saw an ad for the Metropolitan Community Church and knew from there on he’d finally found a place where he could show all that he is and be accepted for it. He is the forefront of ministry for the Gay and Lesbian community of Toronto. He relishes his reputation with several human rights initiatives, especially benefitting those with unbound sexual identities. In 1994, he received the highest civilian award in Toronto, Award of Merit. In 2007, he was appointed the Order of Canada for his strong stance on social justice and human rights for LGBTQ+ members. This is currently the highest honor a country has given to a gay activist.

Why Is Everyone Talking About Michael Jackson and ‘Leaving Neverland’?

By: Elizabeth Padilla

Michael Jackson can be considered the most famous entertainer of the 20th century. When he died in June 2009, it was a tragedy for many and national conversations around the multiple allegations of child molestation against him died along with him. The focus instead shifted to his planned ‘This Is It’ comeback concerts, his unreleased songs, and a musical legacy that includes hundreds of millions of albums sold.

But on January 25, the Sundance Film Festival debuted the four-hour documentary “Leaving Neverland,” which includes detailed accusations of abuse, reopening the discussion on one of the most notorious scandals in music history. The accusations revolve around Jacksons known private home and amusement park, Neverland Ranch.

The documentary focuses on two men, Wade Robson and James Safechuck, who claim, in separate accounts, that Jackson sexually abused them for years, from boyhood into adolescence. Wade Robson, a choreographer who has worked with Britney Spears, was “discovered” by Jackson at the age of 7 where the boy had been performing with a kids dance troupe. James Safechuck, a computer programmer, was in Los Angeles on the set of the beloved Pepsi commercial exploring Jackson’s backstage dressing room at the age of 9. Robson and Safechuck (who appeared alongside Jackson in a memorable 1987 Pepsi commercial) described many sexual allegations throughout the documentary. Robson, who says Jackson nicknamed him “Little One,” describes one of the singer’s methods from keeping him from speaking out was the constant reminder from Jackson that if they were caught there would be consequences for the both of them. Safechuck talks about a secret “wedding” he had with Jackson, and the ring he still has in his possession, saying Jackson gave him jewelry in exchange for sexual favors.

Robson’s mother, Joy, tells how that first encounter with Jackson felt supernatural and wonderful—something that could positively transform her son’s life. Joy describes the second linkup as a brush with “the impossible. You don’t just come to America and start calling some numbers and get in contact with Michael Jackson somehow, and then you’re going to see him again. That was just not a normal scenario.” Says Joy, “It was surreal for all of us. Hollywood and this whole entertainment business was on another planet from where we were.” So when Jackson invited Robson and his older sister, Chantal, to sleep in his quarters, Joy says she didn’t think much of it, or of when Jackson offered to let Robson stay with him for a week while the Robson family visited the Grand Canyon. To say no would mean bringing real-world logic into a dream that had come true, thus ending the dream. Robson says that the “trippy part” was that even though Jackson was a stranger, “it felt like we knew him: He’d been in my living room every day,” via TV, posters, and music. For a child to want a slumber party with him was like wanting a slumber party with Mickey Mouse. But, when the first allegations of child molestation broke Joy immediately confronted her son. Robson insisted then that Jackson had never inappropriately touched him.

Both men supported Jackson during a 2005 trial for molestation and denied he had abused them. However, Robson and Safechuck both sued Jackson’s estate after the star’s death. Robson said Jackson molested him for seven years, and Safechuck said he and Jackson engaged in sexual acts “hundreds” of times. Both cases were dismissed and are under appeal.

Following the four-hour documentary “Leaving Neverland,” Robson and Safechuck were interviewed by Oprah Winfrey where Robson admitted only when he had a son that he felt free of his need to protect Jackson. “I loved him, and I wanted to protect him. In my mind, up until whatever it was, six years ago or so, I was going to take what truly happened to my grave,” he said, “No question that was the way it was.” Robson said that if his son hadn’t been born, there was a “really good chance” he would still “be living in silence.”

To Jackson and his family, Neverland Ranch was not only a home it was an amusement park to them. The Jackson family responded by releasing a statement that called the documentary a “public lynching.” “We are furious that the media, who without a shred of proof or single piece of physical evidence, chose to believe the word of two admitted liars over the word of hundreds of families and friends around the world who spent time with Michael, many at Neverland, and experienced his legendary kindness and global generosity,” the statement reads. “The creators of this film were not interested in the truth. They never interviewed a single solitary soul who knew Michael except the two perjurers and their families.”

Jackson faced accusations similar to these in 1993, the family of a 13-year-old boy filed a $30 million lawsuit saying Jackson sexually abused their son, which included kissing, fondling and other sexual acts. The suit was settled out of court in 1994 for around $23 million. Another accusation surfaced of a cancer survivor who appeared by Jackson’s side in the Martin Bashir television documentary “Living With Michael Jackson” at the age of 14 when authorities formally charged Jackson with molesting him. During the 14-week criminal trial in 2005, the boy’s younger brother said that Jackson showed them pornography, served them alcohol and molested his brother on two occasions. Jackson was found not guilty.

The documentary has lead Michael Jackson’s estates to sue HBO for more than $100 million over the accusations of Jackson abusing the two men when they were children. In the lawsuit filed in Los Angeles, the singer’s estate argues that the film violates a 1992 contract to broadcast a Jackson concert which included an agreement to not disparage the singer at any future point in time. “It is hard to imagine a more direct violation of the non-disparagement clause,” says the suit, which asks the court to order arbitration and says damages could exceed $100 million.

At the end of the day the only people with knowledge surrounding what took place in the Neverland rooms are the host and his guests. More than one of them now claims to have been groomed, abused, manipulated, and coached by Jackson. That matters as much as the moonwalk. That might make “Heal the World” a lie and the “Man in the Mirror” a monster. One had to overlook numerous accusations and testimonies to continue to maintain an idolized belief in the image of purity and wholesomeness Jackson presented us in his career. As the tenth anniversary of Jackson’s death approaches, it’s okay to revisit the memory of Jackson as we thought he was, but let’s also speak of all the aspects of his life we categorically refused to believe, and pledge to never again choose the love of fame over the well-being of a child.

Jackson and Wade Robson in a still from “Leaving Neverland.” Robson grew up to become a choreographer for Britney Spears and Cirque du Soleil.

Michael Jackson, left, and James Safechuck on a plane in 1988. In the HBO documentary “Leaving Neverland,” Safechuck accuses Jackson of sexually abusing him when he was a child.

Gone, but Never Forgotten

By Elizabeth Mendoza

On March 4th, 2019, actor Luke Perry, known from his 1990s television series 90210,Perry, winning a Bravo Otto Award for Best Male TV Star in 1993, as well as 1994,  and CW series Riverdale, passed away due to a massive stroke in his home in Sherman Oaks. The actor was quickly hospitalized but did not show signs of getting better. Due to respect for his family, not much has been said about the actor besides the cause of death. A publicist by the name of Arnold Robinson told CNN “The family appreciates the outpouring of support and prayers that have been extended to Luke from around the world, and respectfully request privacy in this time of great mourning”. Perry’s death broke the hearts of many fans who are sending their love towards the actor’s family through social media. Riverdale co-stars also took to social media to honor the actor and share how much he will be missed. Actress Lili Reinhart, Perry’s Riverdale co-star, posted on her Instagram story saying, “I can barely find the words. I am devastated. We all are.” Actor Kj Apa, who plays Perry’s son in Riverdale, also shared a photo of the actor with the caption “Rest in Love bro”. Various friends and co-stars shared their feelings on the passing of Perry. May his family heal from the loss and may Perry rest peacefully.

iCarly Star Jennette McCurdy Opens Up About Eating Disorder

By: Melody Aviles

Former Nickelodeon Star, Jennette McCurdy, who played “Sam” in the show “iCarly”, has recently opened up about her 13-year struggle battling anorexia, bulimia, and disordered eating. In a personal essay, McCurdy explains in detail how she battled these disorders for 13 years and has been in recovery for the past two, revealing that her eating disorder began when she was only 11 years old. McCurdy states that her mother was also a prominent figure of her struggle as she encouraged her anorexia and eating disorders even more. In her essay, she recalls, “As a child actress working in Hollywood, I quickly learned that remaining physically small for my age meant I had a better chance of booking more roles. Unfortunately, I had a trusty and dedicated companion ready to help me with my burgeoning anorexia: my mom!” McCurdy explains that although her mom encouraged it, she doesn’t hold it against her. She also shares how her mom would compare her body to those of other girls, portion out her meals, and count her calories. McCurdy points out that growing up she always believed her mom was “looking out” for her, but she didn’t realize she was only “aiding my disordered eating”. The iCarly star revealed that her mother was hospitalized for anorexia on several occasions when she was a teenager and still isn’t convinced she ever fully overcame it. After she booked iCarly, McCurdy became more obsessed with her appearance and would monitor every bite, exercise obsessively, and measure her thighs with measuring tape every night. The actor then turned to binge eating when her mother was diagnosed with cancer for a second time and, by the age of 21, turned to bulimia. All of these disorders were unintentionally fueled by those on set as they told her how great she looked. It wasn’t until her sister-in-law confronted her about her disorders and suggested that she get help. McCurdy explains that “recovery was brutal” but it has now been two years and she is doing well and moving forward. However, she admits that she still gets eating disorder urges, compulsions, and fantasies, but now she can fight and ignore it. Jennette McCurdy’s journey with eating disorders was tough as she explains, but she pushed herself and was able to get through it.